Day 9: Living

Today I feel gratitude for good friends. Friends that are willing to help me when needed, to listen when I need a sounding board, and a shoulder for support. I noticed that with many of my friends that they are willing to go out of their way to help me. Every time it happens I feel surprised. I don't know why. But I am always immensely surprised, and immensely grateful. I believe this goes back to me believing that I am not good enough, not worth enough, to have good things in my life happen to me.

On my birthday, I wrote a status on Facebook talking about the gratitude I felt for the people in my life. My good friend Emelie wrote: "What goes around comes around, you are awesome!"

It's interesting because at first when I read the "What goes around comes around..." I felt immediate fear and felt ashamed that she was going to say that I deserved bad karma... lol

I find it strange that that's what I first thought and felt.

Very telling I believe. I have little self-worth. Little belief that I deserve good things :(

I need to work on that.

<3 Namaste